Kung Hei Fat Choi . . Kuha mo?!

January 23, 2012

     Had a great day today spending time with my in-laws. We prepared a simple meal for them during lunch and merienda. It's great to see them having fun with my children and my hubby too. ;) yan mo ko ngh ti

     Prep time is also fun and hectic. Pero keri lang. Minsan lang naman eh. 

     Later in the afternoon after our siesta, pumunta kami ng mall para mamasyal. Ok naman, masaya din. Except I REALLY didn't like the resto where we had our dinner. Ang baho at ang layo pa. Ayoko ng ganun. Eeeewww.... 

     Dapat pala tumingin muna ko sa internet ng pwedeng kainan para naman hindi nakakahiya sa mga in-laws ko. :p 

     Sometimes I wonder, bakit kaya kapag may ayaw sila na bagay or kahit ano, hindi na lang nila sabihin bluntly na ayaw nila nun or daanin nila sa ibang ways para masabi na hindi nila gusto yung bagay or lugar na yun? Many times kasi napapansin ko sa huli lagi nagbibigay ng side comments. Eh obviously naman na nabahuan dun sa place at naguluhan. OMG! Up to now ba nagkakahiyaan parin kayo ng mama mo ha? I know that you're gonna read this so I'm gonna tell this to you. 

1. Please don't bring me/ us (with the kids) to that kind of place anymore. Nakaka-trauma sa totoo lang.

2. I hope you won't ask your parents "Saan nyo gusto?" Give specific places na lang para specifics din yung answer.

3. If may nakita ka na na place, tanungin mo ulit kung ok ba sila dun. Or before hand tanungin mo na yung kapatid mong babae kung ok ba sila mama sa ganung resto. 

4. Please don't blame me na matagal akong pumili ng glasses dahil alam mo naman na matagal talaga akong pumili ng kahit ano.

5. Please, I will repeat again! Ayoko ng minamadali ako! Ayoko ng mga hirit na "Sige na para tapos na." Bigyan mo ko ng time! Thank you at ginawan mo ng paraan ang lahat pero ayoko ng pinagsasabay-sabay lahat!!!! Walang natatapos ng maayos. Feeling ko parang gawaing paa lang. 

Please if you're reading this let us work things out na walang sumasama ang loob sa huli. 

Benefits of a broken laptop

January 19, 2012

     Recently, I haven't been so active on social networking sites, and on any other site for that matter because our laptop got broken. At first it was our globe superstick, and then eventually, sumunod na rin nasira ang laptop namin. Yep, it was my fault again. I accidentally dropped it. Yes folks, that's how careless I am. I am now dropping laptops. . . :-(

     When our laptop was getting fixed, I enjoyed more TV. It can be a little boring but it can buy a little time off. So it was ok. Second, I enjoyed more time with the kids, especially with my second child. I could talk to him more, teach him a little more and sleep a little more as well. Now that our laptop is fixed again, it takes so much of my time, since I got a little - ok, a lot excited of being in the net again. I just wish I'm not getting freakishly addictive so I could more rest. :-/

The perfect birthday wish

12 January 2012


        What I am about to share with you happened over a year ago when mom and I are still having some problems. As you have read from my previous blogs, it came to a point wherein I did not care about her anymore. If she gets sick, if a car ran over her, I wouldn't care anymore. I wasn't even sure if I will cry at her funeral. Yep. That's how angry I was. 
        But that was months ago. What I've failed to mention in my blogs recently is that everything turned out fine with me and mom. (Finally!)
       It happened on my birthday June 30th. I was so pissed and stressed because everything is not going the way I planned. I guess you can say that I'm a little bit of a perfectionist since I don't feel too comfortable when everything around the house is a mess especially if there would be en event. I want everything done neatly.
      So apart from the unfinished house chores, my yaya back then had chicken pox and so we had to make her rest in her sister's place. In short, injured kami sa house. (injured - in my vocab can also mean kulang sa tao, kaya dadami ang trabaho).
     I felt so sorry for myself since it was  my birthday and I'm doing my chores. :-( It was a good thing that my mom called up Ian and asked him what my plan was. My mom already made plans to go home early so I could go out on my birthday. 
     The bad part was, nawalan na ako ng gana mag-plano kung ano gagawin ko sa birthday ko kasi nga it started as a stressful day. It was a good thing that Ian told me what mom had planned for me because I took it as a sign to made amends with her after months of not speaking to her.
      So I texted her, apologized, and thanked her because even if I have shouted, cursed, and treated her badly when we were fighting, I felt that she still cares and loves, not only me but my family as well. :-) 
      Siguro sabi ni Lord, tama na daw ang patampo effect ko at panahon na nga naman para magka-ayos na kami. Haay... natupad na din ang pinapangarap ng asawa ko, more biyaya, este, more peace in the family. (Hehehe! Joke lang labs if you're reading :-p)

S u p e r M o M

 October 19, 2011

                Sa totoo lang, ang hirap maging babae!

                Now I understand kung bakit ganun-ganun na lang ang treatment ng mother and father-in-laws ko sa sister-in-law ko. She’s older than me by a few months but we were born the same year. When she was younger, they would always treat her like a princess. All her other brothers have assigned chores to do in the house while she sits and relax – this is the part where my husband starts debating the rules of their parents. My husband would say, “Bakit siya walang ginagawa? Dapat fair.” And my mother-in-law would say, “Hayaan mo na siya, babae siya eh.”

Before I thought that this kind of reasoning was absurd. Yun pala, my mother-in-law turned out to be right. You see, when I was younger, I didn’t realize that when you would have a daughter, you should take extra good care of her because in the future, she would be a mother, a friend, a wife, an employee all at the same time. Kaya habang mapagbibigyan at maalagaan mo ang anak mong babae, alagaan at pagbigyan mo siya.

                The reason I shared this story to you guys is because today, I literally felt like a supermom. I took care of my kids, fed them, played with them, managed the chores in the house, fix and clean things, etc. I had a time of rest, but by the afternoon, I thought I’d clean up the ref first. Then, I got disappointed because while I cleaned the ref, I got little time and energy left to finish arranging the clothes in our cabinet. And then my 2 year old was screaming! So I took my cigarette and had a little break. After I had my yosi break, I was so proud of myself for having cleaned my husband’s closet! Yes! Three cabinets, two drawers and one room to go! 

                When night time came, I was too tired and asked my husband to help me teach our eldest because he will be having his exams tomorrow. So he did that, and then he was able to feed our 2 year old (Yay!).  I slept for a couple of minutes because I was too exhausted to do anything. But then, I was able to get up, have another yosi break, took a bath and started blogging. Ergo – feeling supermom. :p

Dad’s birthday... and past

October 17, 2011

                

                A few days from now, it’s going to be my dad’s birthday. He’s a little worried though. But I wish he would have a great one.

                When I was younger, I used to visit my dad’s place. That’s the fruit of having separated parents. You get to visit lots of houses. :/ Anyway, back then, he had a relationship with a woman named Narsie. Narsie was cruel to me.

                My dad’s place was a compound so our other relatives live in the same area. I remember when I was at my cousins’ house, I was just waiting for Narsie to go to sleep. Finally, when I was about to open our door, she immediately ran up and locked it again. So I opened it. And then she locked it again. And then I opened it again. And she locked it again. Finally, I was so angry I screamed, “Dad!”! That was the time I got to open the door. When I opened it, she was just staring at me like a monster.

                I went to my room and she just started texting me nasty things about my dad. I hated her. In the end, I ended up crying and begging her to stop her cruel ways and made amends. Ang bait ko noh? Actually, I don’t know what came up to me that night. Basta gusto ko na lang makipag-ayos.

Marami pang times na nangyari na bumabati ako sa kanya pero dedma lang siya. Bastos! Walang modo. Walang pinag-aralan. Utak langgam. Yes, bitter talaga ko!

Maybe some of you are thinking why I can’t let go of my past? If I am happy and contended with my life now, why should I bother stressing about the horrible things that happened when I was younger? Well, my answer is precisely that. I am now happy and contended with my life as I fulfil my role as a mother and wife. So why in hell should I let someone ruin my peaceful life? This is not a time to ask questions. This is the time to fight and win, to protect what is yours and not let anyone ruin what you have built and dreamt for 12 years. A happy family.

So if ever magkita kami, isa lang ang masasabi ko… Ang ganda mo! Pak! Bwahahaha!

No, that’s not what I really intend to say… I’m just kidding guys. Basta, be ready for world war 3! Hmph! 

Sulit ba ang 4k mo?!

 October 6, 2011

           Sa panahon ngayon, hindi na puwede ang masarap na mahirap. Siguro ang iba sa inyo maaring may mga  pagkakataon na puwede mo pa masabi na masarap at mahirap ang ginagawa niyo sa buhay niyo. Pero in cold, harsh reality, kapag walang pera, mahirap! 

        Korek!

         Ang pera nga naman, mahirap kitain ngunit mahirap din patagalin sa mga kamay mo. Minsan nga hindi pa tumatagal eh. Ang bad trip pa dun, it’s like you’re not getting what’s your money’s worth. Hindi sulit. Pagkain nagmahal, gamot nagmahal, edukasyon, damit, transpo, ultimo pagseserbisyo nagmahal. Mahal na ang pagtitip sa mga carwash, barbero, salon, bagger at kung anu-ano pa. Kapag binigyan mo ng bente, inis pa sa’yo. Ang dating pa insulto. Haay nako ang mga tao talaga… 

        Pati mga kasambahay ang dami na din demands. Imbyerna! Ubos kwarta. 

I have 3 helpers at home. 1 boy and 2 manangs. Hindi ko sila lahat maasahan sa pag-aalaga ng mga kids ko. Ayaw nila mag-alaga. Gusto nila lahat gawaing bahay. It’s like I’m paying all of them to clean the house and I’m the one left with the kids. It’s exhausting. It’s fun, but at times it’s really exhausting. Yung tipong sa sobrang pagod mo, matutulog ka na lang.

Ok lang naman sakin mag-alaga ng mga bata. I like it nga eh. I can say that I’m good with my kids. But sometimes, I can’t help but think, that I’m paying all my helpers P11,000 per month and I’m still f*ing tired!!! 

      Hindi ko keri! 11K??!!!! Hindi ba dapat humihilata na lang ako nun? Eh sa sobrang kabadtripan pa nga, nakuha ko pa itong i-blog! OMG talga!!!

      My husband and my mom said, now that the kids are still young, we should treat our helpers as investments. Kasi nga these days, finding good help is like finding a needle in a haysack. Haaay buhay…. :/

Mall Tour (Part II)

Ang pangalawang mall tour ko, kasama ko yung friend ko. Engaged na siya and we decided to meet up at the mall to have lunch together and to catch up. Besides, ring bearer ang eldest ko sa wedding niya kaya keri lang. 

                As usual, late na naman ako so my friend decided to buy some things muna before meeting me at a restaurant. Finally, we saw each other and made super chika to the max. :-D Actually, a few dates before our meet-up, nagpa-practice na ko ng mga ichi-chika at mga sasabihin. Haha! Rehearsal daw :-P Yes mattress! Talagang nag-practice ako, because I know this is my chance to express myself or more appropriately, to explain myself why I acted so mean and tactless back when I was in college, or even back before I got kids.

                As you can see in my past blogs, maldita talaga ang lola mo. Of course malaking factor na diyan ang upbringing and outlook in life kaya ngayon na marami-rami akong time na mag muni-muni at ngayong tumatanda na ko, I am slowly realizing (talagang slowly?? Chuckie! :p) that I was really mean back then. Mayabang na wala namang alam, alam mo yun? Haha! Ewan ko, basta ganun yung kinalakihan ko kaya ganun din ako umakto.

                So anyway, going back to my story, I was able naman to let my college friend know that I have changed for the better. I have achieved my goal to make her realize that I am now a changed person and in-short, bumait na ko. Hahaha! 

                After some more chika, I have noticed too that I know very little about my friend’s life and family. Hindi naman sa nakiki-usi pero kasi, kaya nga friend mo di ba? It’s a little bit weird if you don’t even know a little about her family, her life and her friends. That’s another thing I have noticed about myself when I was younger. I seldom ask my “friends” how they really are and how’s life treating them. I was so busy whining about my life that I didn’t think that they’re life is as important as mine. And yes, I have quoted the word “friends” because I was thinking that how can you be with friends with someone that you know so little about? Right? Eh di acquaintances lang dapat kayo? Or movie buddy? Or drinking buddy? Or chika buddy (if there’s such a thing)? Hahahaha!