Dad’s birthday... and past

October 17, 2011

                

                A few days from now, it’s going to be my dad’s birthday. He’s a little worried though. But I wish he would have a great one.

                When I was younger, I used to visit my dad’s place. That’s the fruit of having separated parents. You get to visit lots of houses. :/ Anyway, back then, he had a relationship with a woman named Narsie. Narsie was cruel to me.

                My dad’s place was a compound so our other relatives live in the same area. I remember when I was at my cousins’ house, I was just waiting for Narsie to go to sleep. Finally, when I was about to open our door, she immediately ran up and locked it again. So I opened it. And then she locked it again. And then I opened it again. And she locked it again. Finally, I was so angry I screamed, “Dad!”! That was the time I got to open the door. When I opened it, she was just staring at me like a monster.

                I went to my room and she just started texting me nasty things about my dad. I hated her. In the end, I ended up crying and begging her to stop her cruel ways and made amends. Ang bait ko noh? Actually, I don’t know what came up to me that night. Basta gusto ko na lang makipag-ayos.

Marami pang times na nangyari na bumabati ako sa kanya pero dedma lang siya. Bastos! Walang modo. Walang pinag-aralan. Utak langgam. Yes, bitter talaga ko!

Maybe some of you are thinking why I can’t let go of my past? If I am happy and contended with my life now, why should I bother stressing about the horrible things that happened when I was younger? Well, my answer is precisely that. I am now happy and contended with my life as I fulfil my role as a mother and wife. So why in hell should I let someone ruin my peaceful life? This is not a time to ask questions. This is the time to fight and win, to protect what is yours and not let anyone ruin what you have built and dreamt for 12 years. A happy family.

So if ever magkita kami, isa lang ang masasabi ko… Ang ganda mo! Pak! Bwahahaha!

No, that’s not what I really intend to say… I’m just kidding guys. Basta, be ready for world war 3! Hmph! 

Sulit ba ang 4k mo?!

 October 6, 2011

           Sa panahon ngayon, hindi na puwede ang masarap na mahirap. Siguro ang iba sa inyo maaring may mga  pagkakataon na puwede mo pa masabi na masarap at mahirap ang ginagawa niyo sa buhay niyo. Pero in cold, harsh reality, kapag walang pera, mahirap! 

        Korek!

         Ang pera nga naman, mahirap kitain ngunit mahirap din patagalin sa mga kamay mo. Minsan nga hindi pa tumatagal eh. Ang bad trip pa dun, it’s like you’re not getting what’s your money’s worth. Hindi sulit. Pagkain nagmahal, gamot nagmahal, edukasyon, damit, transpo, ultimo pagseserbisyo nagmahal. Mahal na ang pagtitip sa mga carwash, barbero, salon, bagger at kung anu-ano pa. Kapag binigyan mo ng bente, inis pa sa’yo. Ang dating pa insulto. Haay nako ang mga tao talaga… 

        Pati mga kasambahay ang dami na din demands. Imbyerna! Ubos kwarta. 

I have 3 helpers at home. 1 boy and 2 manangs. Hindi ko sila lahat maasahan sa pag-aalaga ng mga kids ko. Ayaw nila mag-alaga. Gusto nila lahat gawaing bahay. It’s like I’m paying all of them to clean the house and I’m the one left with the kids. It’s exhausting. It’s fun, but at times it’s really exhausting. Yung tipong sa sobrang pagod mo, matutulog ka na lang.

Ok lang naman sakin mag-alaga ng mga bata. I like it nga eh. I can say that I’m good with my kids. But sometimes, I can’t help but think, that I’m paying all my helpers P11,000 per month and I’m still f*ing tired!!! 

      Hindi ko keri! 11K??!!!! Hindi ba dapat humihilata na lang ako nun? Eh sa sobrang kabadtripan pa nga, nakuha ko pa itong i-blog! OMG talga!!!

      My husband and my mom said, now that the kids are still young, we should treat our helpers as investments. Kasi nga these days, finding good help is like finding a needle in a haysack. Haaay buhay…. :/